Yandea Hai El
Aug.18.2015


Laying on my couch..taking in the morning sun. One by one the children woke up and gave me a warm greeting.
But Moriah's greeting brought tears to my eyes. She said "Good Morning Mommy" lifted up my tank top, kissed, blew on my belly ..looks me in my eyes and says "Mom, I Love your stretch marks!
Right now as I write this I am actually crying because I am so in love with my children..I know that I am blessed. Not 1 or 2 but 4 spectacular beings of light call me mother. Yet I have not until today really grasped the fullness of the experience of motherhood. For 13 years I have failed to accept and love these stretch marks and this has kept me from fully appreciating and loving myself, womanhood, motherhood and actually "humanhood".
Sometimes people comment on my pics and I think to myself " I wonder if they would still think I was beautiful without clothes on..seeing the stretch marks, Mommy tummy and sagging boobs. .lol It's nice that others think I am beautiful but I am giving thanks that today my daughter's love was sufficient to help me see myself through her eyes. I am beautiful. .strong, brave, blessed beyond words. .I can truly say that these are not just stretch marks..they are proof of sacrificial love, of faith and endurance, of miracles and of God within. I am Mother..Goddess, Divine from head to toe..inside and out...and I've been blessed with the "scars" to prove it! 
To everyone battling with self love..I pray that you find the truth sooner rather than later. You really are beautiful..please please please love the skin that you are in.

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